Peaceful Surprise

This force of tranquil marrow snuck up on my heart of doubt like a peaceful surprise, jolting me from preconceived notions of happiness and love into a world of true understanding. The wondering of things unseen and mispronounced ceased upon your entry, the shadow of your soul sheltering my discovered treasure. Like the dispersing of clouds after a humid rain, the separation of the herd after loud cries of disorganization, finally am I able to capture a presence once unknown to my feeble mind. The fire in the skies of my soul are extinguished to reveal the burnt offering meant only for your eyes. Memories of far away pasts rise in attempts to hold me in their sadness, desparation, their mortal substance. Your heart, my only saving grace, defines who I wish to become: one with who you are, who you've always been. I ache for you. Always.

Knowing...

Childhood plagued me with many questions. My vivid imagination often took control and guided me to far away to lands of unknowing and a search for answers. My life was a mess, there's no doubt about it. But holding a grudge wasn't really my style, and I never could point the finger at any person/reason for how things turned out. I never blamed myself, either. It seems that things were just set up to become what they are today, and I'm very, very happy with my life in this moment. It's a strange feeling for me to be content and without complaint. I love it.

I'm still learning about myself, and some people underestimate how important that really is. At the end of the day, I'm only one person. I want to make sure that relationship is completely solid when life deals me out a shitty hand, because sometimes it does, and the only way to get around that is to be happy with you and who you are. To be content in the knowledge that you can accomplish anything you believe to be possible, and apply that concept to everday life. Without a solid foundation, your house will fall and leave you under the rubble. That's a bad place to be on a beautiful day. :)

Condensed Vacation (May 2-10, 2009)

http://www.becker.org/images/Bike%20Trip/california2.htm

This link takes you to a description of Tionesta, CA, the first place we stayed. Control+F the word "Tionesta," and it will take you down to the place where they talk about it. But these people were crazy, they biked all over California...ah! :)

http://www.nps.gov/labe/

This one takes you to the Lava Beds National Monument that we went to the day we left Tionesta. Awesome. :)

http://www.historic-hotels-lodges.com/oregon/oregon-caves-chateau/oregon-caves-chateau-tour.htm

That link takes you to a detailed description of the Chateau that we stayed at in Cave Junction, OR.

http://www.nps.gov/mora/

This is Mount Rainier, the last place we visited before driving home.

And, of course, in between this timeline are the long hours of driving and dealing with each others nerves. I will put up a more detailed, in depth version of the vacation a little later, right now I'm just unwinding from the trip. But It was so much fun, and I think documenting it is really important...More later! (ps...new album, too. :) )

xoxo

Spiderwebs

OK, originally, I was going to have to go all ninja on Paco for putting this up, but it turned out to be pretty hilarious. PS, the only reason the vocals sucked was because...well, because I sucked, but STILL! lol, seriously, I've been told before that I have a pretty good voice, and I'm gonna go with the comments that make me feel good about myself, so THERE!! I think it was average sounding because we were just messing around. :D

Thor (Monday, February 23, 2009)

Well, how cheesy is this? Dedicating a blog to my ex-brother in law/ex-roommate. You're leaving for Afghanistan today, and I have to say that I'm totally sad and scared. I know that I've missed you since I moved and left everything unsaid and undone back in Casper a few years ago, but I miss you more just knowing that you'll be even further away in a country that I know nothing about (except how to spell it and THAT is an accomplishment. :D...wait, it is a country, right? This just got a lot more embarrassing.) This is not a goodbye, just a little note to let you know how much you mean to me.

I miss listening to crazy techno music, driving in Casper with nothing better to do. I miss watching Will & Grace until five o' clock in the morning, lines memorized by heart, stuffing our faces with Top Ramen and those Jet Fuel pills. I miss you coming to Taco Bell and yelling "WHOPPER NO ONION!!!" at me through the speaker. I miss watching you eat pepper spray, and then watching you do it AGAIN when Josh didn't get to see it the first time. I miss watching you snort lemon juice at Dori Lou's. I miss all the great advice you gave me when I didn't know to listen. I miss watching you down hot ass cups of coffee at Caspers. I miss coffee with you. I miss Josh kicking our ass at COD2. I DON'T miss you running around the apartment with your sock, hilarious as it was. :D i miss the life that you gave me the opportunity to live. I miss you counseling me on all my horrible relationships. I miss watching you with Kayla. I miss Christmas and Thanksgiving at your house. I miss our big ass TV. I miss you. You've been my best friend and been there by my side even though I didn't return it, and I'm sure that I don't deserve that from you. I'm sorry for not giving you the same treatment. I hope that I can make it out in October. I can't wait to see you again. :D I love you!!!!!

2009...

I have no idea what this year will bring, and frankly I don't care to know. I think the spontaneity of life truly brings meaning to our purpose, and the fact that I'm still here to unlock its mystery is something I'll be grateful for till the end. Until that time comes, I know that I'll learn, become, and love more than I ever have. That, truly, is something to cherish.

Say it with me.."random."

Prepare yourself. I am so utterly bored and avoiding homework that I plan on listing totally random things that I'm doing/thinking/eating/drinking/wishing/hoping/planning/dreaming...You get the picture.

Today on Facebook, I joined a group called, "You grew up in the 90's if you remember..." Boy, it took me back. Bad boy bands, Goosebump books, and that "pissing the night away" line in that Smashmouth song that made you wonder 1) why the lady singing it sounded British and 2) why 'pissing' had any place in the song at all. =]] Good times.

A few weeks ago, my family and I took a trip up to Jamestown. While passing a big field, I looked out the window and said, "Aw, look at the cow!!" Everyone present said simultaneously, "That's a horse!" Thought it might have looked a little skinny...=/ But it was spotty!!!

I have an obnoxiously loud laugh. And I snort. Could it possibly be anymore embarrassing?

I'm listening to my brother talk in his sleep. It's so cute!

I wish I wasn't so scared to sing in front of people. It's the one thing I value over every other talent I've been told I possess, but the only one I refuse to share. =/ Weird.

I have elf ears. That's even weirder.

I'm in love with Taco Bell. People say that once you've worked with food, you tend to despise eating it, but it's SO not true. I felt like I worked there for ten years, and there's no way I'll ever get enough. T to the A to the C O B E double L, baby. =]]

I haven't had a cell phone in 4 months. I should be pulling my hair out, but instead I'm resting my elf ears. =D Feels good not to have stupid chains and pictures of cartoon characters doing dirty things flying my way every twenty minutes.

My physical standard for a potential boyfriend is very low. A sense of humor and great personality tend to rank higher on the list of must-haves.

I'll be 22 in 9 months...oh em gee. =]]

I can recite movies by heart. My favorite one is Sleepless in Seattle. It's a sad fact.

Bad singers on American Idol, especially the ones that suck monkeys but are totally convinced of their "talent", are a horrible train wreck that you just can't tear your eyes off of. I used to wonder if they actually paid these poor bastards to play along with the script. I love Randy and Simon. ♥ Paula is just weird.

Family Guy is totally my favorite show.

I can't wait to transfer to University.

I'm getting tired. =]] G'night, peepz.

Obama Rally

from: Change4Deaf

Vegas

An old video of the family on the way to Vegas in 2005, I believe.

Fall

She asked me, "Will I follow you?"

And I answered, "The choice is only yours."

So many different ways to change the world

And so little time to make a difference.

Contemplating this dilemma, we walk the

Leaf covered bridge, wondering aloud,

"What will become of us?"

With no answer, we lower our heads

And walk the twisted road of fate.

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